Years ago, a friend and I took voice lessons together.
Eventually, the instructor offered to teach me privately at a very reduced rate. She said I had promise.
I was thrilled.
When the instructor signed me up for a music competition,
I had rules.
- Never take risks.
- Avoid the unknown.
- Don’t draw attention to yourself.
- Don’t make anyone angry.
I wasn’t born following these rules. In fact, I grew up
- taking risks
- running full tilt into the unknown.
I loved to
- perform in front of people.
- take charge of situations.
- meet new people.
Hard times wore me down.
Disappointments. Rejection. Loss.
I needed rules to keep me safe.
Eventually, the rules turned into walls.
I found out that walls block more than the wind and the rain.
They also close us off from
- other people
- just plain growing as a person.
They can even keep us from God.
But, I kept the walls.
Case in point – My first trip to Disneyland.
I was a young mom at the time. Our first stop: the “It’s a Small World” ride. While my other kids gasped and squealed, I clung to my two month old baby and sighed.
That’s what I wanted. All I could handle at the time.
A small world.
Not any more. I want freedom. I need to grow.
Taking a line from the lyrics of Hillsong United, I am attempting to
“Tear down the wall(s), see the world…There is so much more than this”.
What about you? Have any walls?